Momma's Girl!

So, as much as I love having a baby who loves me so much, the need for constant attention from me and me only is getting to be a little much. She is even sitting with me now as I type this. Which I might add, is making it very difficult to type with her little hands poking at all the keys. I've known for awhile that she is very dependent on me, what baby isn't that way with their Mom? She has spent every moment with me for the first 6 months of her life. It's understandable, but today, when I couldn't even go to the washroom without hearing the cries from the next room I knew something different has to happen. I have to go back to work in less than 5 months, then what will happen? Plus, she hasn't been sleeping well the last week or so, and I am exhausted. I think I may be bordering on the line of insanity even. I am in desperate need of some me time. I try to do something in another room while leaving her with Dad in the evening, but I can hear her crying so after 5 minutes I give in and go to her rescue. Rescue.. lol. Like I think I am some kind of hero, picking up my child. I feel guilty just thinking about leaving her with anyone and going out somewhere to enjoy myself. But, tonight I think I am going to be selfish. I am going to go and play rec soccer and leave the girls with their Dad. But, will I really enjoy myself anyway? I am not a social person, and I don't really know anyone who will be there, and the whole time I will be wondering if Piper is being good for her Daddy. I will be so stressed out worrying about things, that I might as well just stay home and enjoy the company of my family. I guess I have a couple of hours to decide what I should do. But, I think for my sanity, a little interaction with other adults would do me some good. I really shouldn't complain, as I know a few years down the road, she will want nothing to do with her Mom and I'll be doing everything within my power to spend time with her.