When will it be my turn?

Lately it seems like every time I log on to facebook there is a new announcement of someone I know getting engaged. I am so happy for all of my friends and can't wait to either attend their weddings or see the pictures afterward. I know there is a lot of hard work that goes into a wedding, but the final result is so worth it. Everything planned down to the last detail always looks so beautiful. It is one of the most wonderful things in the world to be a part of, either to be in the wedding party or to be a guest. To see the look in the groom's eyes as he watches his bride to be walk down the isle in her beautiful gown, hair all fancy and her face glowing with anticipation, both ready to commit to each other for the rest of their lives. I love weddings! So, it makes me a little sad to say it's looking a lot like I will never get to be a bride. I shouldn't complain, I mean I have met the man I love and he loves me back. Some people aren't that lucky. I guess we already made that life long commitment to each other when we decided to start a family together. We are a family, with or without a marriage certificate. I am so happy to be with him and our two girls, so why do I care so much about one stupid day? Well, it's not a stupid day to me. It's a big day. A very important day, that every girl dreams about. I mean, what girl doesn't want to have that one special day? I try not to think too much about it, but it keeps creeping into my thoughts when I read of everyone else getting engaged. Yes, I am extremely happy for all of my friends, but that doesn't mean I can't be a little jealous at the same time.